banyak eh keja nak perlu diselesaikan before cuti.. huuhu..pa owh.. alu blur bila cita pasal keja.. adoihai...
first and foremost, carik gen cara polah web guna Joomla.. sik tauk papa ku pasal benda ya eh.. then, pinjam buku dari library pkei polah buku untuk Virtual Reality subject, then buku pkei Fuzzy logic... huhu pening3.. pa gik, owh.. em... study k web programming, pas cuti ada lab test subject ya.. huhu.. banyak eh, PTA pun belum siap.. adoi... harap2 dapat polah suma keja ya before duedate... penat eh, dah kelas suma sampei petang, sampe2 bilt penat.. yang pelik sik pat tido.. gneng juak la benda ya... then ah, lupak khamis to aku da exam untuk computer intellignce subject.. banyak gik kira2.. buk sampei classic Genetic Algorithms dah pening palak aku.. harap dipermudahkan soalan3 ya.. huhu
guy's my fwen... doakan kejayaan aku sem tok.. huhu... amin....
Monday 31 October 2011
Thursday 27 October 2011
windu...
jujur aku windu gerek aku...
jujur aku sik tahan gik nanggung rindu tok.. sedih eh...
sbenarnya aku blurr... huhu tapi honest aku windu...
jujur aku sik tahan gik nanggung rindu tok.. sedih eh...
sbenarnya aku blurr... huhu tapi honest aku windu...
For my love...
I’ve been a walking heartache
I’ve made a mess of me
The person that I’ve been lately
Ain’t who I wanna be
But you stay here right beside me
Watch as the storm goes through
And I need you
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you
There’s more here than what were seeing
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely
Could somehow fall for me
You’ll always be love’s great martyr
Ill be the flattered fool
And I need you
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you
On my own I’m only
Half of what I could be
I can’t do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I pray we never undo
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you, gave me you
Gave me you
I’ve made a mess of me
The person that I’ve been lately
Ain’t who I wanna be
But you stay here right beside me
Watch as the storm goes through
And I need you
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you
There’s more here than what were seeing
A divine conspiracy
That you, an angel lovely
Could somehow fall for me
You’ll always be love’s great martyr
Ill be the flattered fool
And I need you
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you
On my own I’m only
Half of what I could be
I can’t do without you
We are stitched together
And what love has tethered
I pray we never undo
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
God gave me you for the ups and downs
God gave me you for the days of doubt
For when I think I’ve lost my way
There are no words here left to say, it’s true
God gave me you, gave me you
Gave me you
Tuesday 25 October 2011
i'm under mistletoe
It’s the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe
I don’t want to miss out on the holiday
But I can’t stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I’mma be under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
Everyone's gathering around the fire
Chestnuts roasting like a hot July
I should be chillin' with my folks, I know
But I’mma be under the mistletoe
Word on the street santa's coming tonight,
Reindeer's flying in the sky so high
I should be making a list I know
But I’mma be under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
Eh, love, the wise men followed the star
The way I follow my heart
And it led me to a miracle
Eh love, don't you buy me nothing
I am feeling one thing, your lips on my lips
That's a very, merry Christmas
It’s the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe
I don’t want to miss out on the holiday
But I can’t stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I’mma be under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
Shawty with you, under the mistletoe
Kiss me underneath the mistletoe
Show me baby that you love me so-oh-oh
Oh, oh ,ohhh
Kiss me underneath the mistletoe,
Show me baby that you love me so-oh-oh
Oh, oh ,ohhh
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe
I don’t want to miss out on the holiday
But I can’t stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I’mma be under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
Everyone's gathering around the fire
Chestnuts roasting like a hot July
I should be chillin' with my folks, I know
But I’mma be under the mistletoe
Word on the street santa's coming tonight,
Reindeer's flying in the sky so high
I should be making a list I know
But I’mma be under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
Eh, love, the wise men followed the star
The way I follow my heart
And it led me to a miracle
Eh love, don't you buy me nothing
I am feeling one thing, your lips on my lips
That's a very, merry Christmas
It’s the most beautiful time of the year
Lights fill the streets spreading so much cheer
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I'mma be under the mistletoe
I don’t want to miss out on the holiday
But I can’t stop staring at your face
I should be playing in the winter snow
But I’mma be under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
With you under the mistletoe
With you, shawty with you
With you, shawty with you
Shawty with you, under the mistletoe
Kiss me underneath the mistletoe
Show me baby that you love me so-oh-oh
Oh, oh ,ohhh
Kiss me underneath the mistletoe,
Show me baby that you love me so-oh-oh
Oh, oh ,ohhh
Saturday 22 October 2011
I'm Tired
haluu... <sad tone>
jujur aku penat.. penat ngan segalanya yang ada disekeliling aku... penat nak teruskan haidup tok.. tapi aku hanya hamba yang hina... tidak ada kuasa dalam diriku yang membolehkan aku melakukan apa saja yang aku suka... i'm that little in this bog world... penat hidup aku eh... honestly, aku penat eh.. penat gilak3... sampe palak aku pun ntah macam dah sik berfungsi gik.. itry to cry but i cant... makin sakit aku asa.. last2, migrain aku yang datang... sakit giler.. kadang asa nak pecahkan jak palak tok... i wish i could dissappear even for a little time... tensen dah aku tok eh.. tensen ngan segala-galanya yang berlaku.. banyak gilak benda nak dibuat sampe aku sik cukup tangan... last, polah aku sikda mud gik nak polah semua keja yang berada di depan mata... aku penat.. JUJUR AKU PENAT SANGAT3.. (^^!!!)...
plan nak balit, tapi aku lelah nak ulang alik.. plus, i got discussion and other works to do... asa nak kuar... but, i dont have a mud for that.. kadang telintas dipikiran aku untuk merempit kat jln tengah2 malam.. kat area samarahan kompom sunyi.. but, aku takut benda len plak yang akan berlaku coz im not in the right state... bila bersama kawan2 pun aku dah sik bermaya... sik larat maok senyum.. bergembira macam dolok.. it feel different.. honestly, it is because im weak, im tired... ditambah malam2 aku si pat tido langsung.. kadang jam 3-4 baruk aku tido.. even aku aku tido awal, pagi2 at the same time aku kompom akan bangun... ntah pahal aku asa aku penat sanagt.. aduh, berat dah kepalaku.. sakit dah kepalaku... migrain aku dah datang...
Ya Allah... kuatkanlah hambamu ini agar tidak melakukan perkara yang ENGKAU mungkari.. selamatkn lah aku dari segala sakit agar dapat terus hidup di duniamu yang besar dah penuh dugaan ini... sesungguhnya, jujur aku lemah dengan semua ini... its over my limit...
jujur aku penat.. penat ngan segalanya yang ada disekeliling aku... penat nak teruskan haidup tok.. tapi aku hanya hamba yang hina... tidak ada kuasa dalam diriku yang membolehkan aku melakukan apa saja yang aku suka... i'm that little in this bog world... penat hidup aku eh... honestly, aku penat eh.. penat gilak3... sampe palak aku pun ntah macam dah sik berfungsi gik.. itry to cry but i cant... makin sakit aku asa.. last2, migrain aku yang datang... sakit giler.. kadang asa nak pecahkan jak palak tok... i wish i could dissappear even for a little time... tensen dah aku tok eh.. tensen ngan segala-galanya yang berlaku.. banyak gilak benda nak dibuat sampe aku sik cukup tangan... last, polah aku sikda mud gik nak polah semua keja yang berada di depan mata... aku penat.. JUJUR AKU PENAT SANGAT3.. (^^!!!)...
plan nak balit, tapi aku lelah nak ulang alik.. plus, i got discussion and other works to do... asa nak kuar... but, i dont have a mud for that.. kadang telintas dipikiran aku untuk merempit kat jln tengah2 malam.. kat area samarahan kompom sunyi.. but, aku takut benda len plak yang akan berlaku coz im not in the right state... bila bersama kawan2 pun aku dah sik bermaya... sik larat maok senyum.. bergembira macam dolok.. it feel different.. honestly, it is because im weak, im tired... ditambah malam2 aku si pat tido langsung.. kadang jam 3-4 baruk aku tido.. even aku aku tido awal, pagi2 at the same time aku kompom akan bangun... ntah pahal aku asa aku penat sanagt.. aduh, berat dah kepalaku.. sakit dah kepalaku... migrain aku dah datang...
Ya Allah... kuatkanlah hambamu ini agar tidak melakukan perkara yang ENGKAU mungkari.. selamatkn lah aku dari segala sakit agar dapat terus hidup di duniamu yang besar dah penuh dugaan ini... sesungguhnya, jujur aku lemah dengan semua ini... its over my limit...
Being Shut is 'better'...
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its better like this... nothing bad would happen is i keep silent from the beginning...
wish i could turn back the time...
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its better like this... nothing bad would happen is i keep silent from the beginning...
wish i could turn back the time...
Wednesday 19 October 2011
Bad girl...
lambat aku...
huhu.. tapi lamak dah sik polah...
biar sik lepas sangat tensen, tapi aku syukur wak diberi peluang...
tq sgt2 dapat lari dari semua tok biarpun untuk masa yang singkat...
now, i'm ok a bit.. just that maybe a little down rite now..
i miss my huby... mesti nya dah tido kinek...
how i miss to be in my huby's arms...
lamak sik tido ngan nya... luang masa ngan nya...
kak tok, biarpun aku and nya sama2 ada kat kuching,
still sik pat jumpa nya kedak dolok gik...
gik2 mun family nya ada... <sunyi lagi aku sendiri>
aku pun, ntah... i want to spend rya with my huby..
ntah aku rasa maok sik maok jak..
macam sik dijemput, di alu2 kan... hahahaha
but that was just my feeling...
kan best mun nya dapat beraya kat kuching... pat la aku join..
coz aku sik balit raya tok... malas...
tapi mun dah bowink gilak maybe akhirnya aku balit juak mun harapan tinggal harapan...
its hurt jadi owg yang cepat berharap tok..
last2 plan punya plan sik jadi...
dua2 pihak sakit.. menderita... how i wish i can be someone that can accept anything...
honestly, i've tried.. but still i can't...
kedak tok la jadinya... jadi mat jenin.. hahahahaha bodo2...
but gne2 pun sakit.. i cnt let my huby go...
my huby is my life... i can't live without my huby...
huhu.. tapi lamak dah sik polah...
biar sik lepas sangat tensen, tapi aku syukur wak diberi peluang...
tq sgt2 dapat lari dari semua tok biarpun untuk masa yang singkat...
now, i'm ok a bit.. just that maybe a little down rite now..
i miss my huby... mesti nya dah tido kinek...
how i miss to be in my huby's arms...
lamak sik tido ngan nya... luang masa ngan nya...
kak tok, biarpun aku and nya sama2 ada kat kuching,
still sik pat jumpa nya kedak dolok gik...
gik2 mun family nya ada... <sunyi lagi aku sendiri>
aku pun, ntah... i want to spend rya with my huby..
ntah aku rasa maok sik maok jak..
macam sik dijemput, di alu2 kan... hahahaha
but that was just my feeling...
kan best mun nya dapat beraya kat kuching... pat la aku join..
coz aku sik balit raya tok... malas...
tapi mun dah bowink gilak maybe akhirnya aku balit juak mun harapan tinggal harapan...
its hurt jadi owg yang cepat berharap tok..
last2 plan punya plan sik jadi...
dua2 pihak sakit.. menderita... how i wish i can be someone that can accept anything...
honestly, i've tried.. but still i can't...
kedak tok la jadinya... jadi mat jenin.. hahahahaha bodo2...
but gne2 pun sakit.. i cnt let my huby go...
my huby is my life... i can't live without my huby...
Tuesday 18 October 2011
my wish...
aku berharap dapt bersama si dia time raya haji tok...
dapt luangkan masa bersama..
jujur, aku rindu dia...
jujur aku cinta dia...
jujur aku perlukan dia...
Ya Allah... makbulkan lah doaku ini...
dan permudahkan segalanya untuk temukan kami...
i'm weak without si dia... aku sayang kamu..
sungguh...
dapt luangkan masa bersama..
jujur, aku rindu dia...
jujur aku cinta dia...
jujur aku perlukan dia...
Ya Allah... makbulkan lah doaku ini...
dan permudahkan segalanya untuk temukan kami...
i'm weak without si dia... aku sayang kamu..
sungguh...
Monday 17 October 2011
haluuu....
kinek kat lab fakulti tingkat 1.. honestly aku pening palak hari tok eh, tapi kejap2 nya datang.. bila dah datang bukan alang2.. saket bahagian depan palak ku... n aku perasan, sejak duak menjak tok.. start jumat lepas, aku heran pahal kadang bila aku duduk pun aku asa duinia berpusing sekeliling aku.. and i guess, that because of my head... kadang aku sik balance time jalan.. selalu langgar cia, langgar citok... aduh.. pa nak jadi ngan aku tok... palak ku makin hari makin, ntah la.. macam apa jak.. then, gastrik aku pun macam kin teruk.. tapi sik teruk ne.. cuma bila dah datang gastrik ya, aku nang sakit.. i try to be cool.. tapi dalam hanya Tuhan yang tau apa yang akuasa.. kinek tok pun palak aku asa berat semacam.. ntah kenak... dalam minggu tok juak aku bawak rileks, no more study malam2... tapi still wak nya datang.. guess maybe bukan sebab tensen.. harap sikda papa... sik larat aku nak sakit palak tiap2 hari,... huhu dah sikda owg jaga.. "suamiku" nun jauh di mata... sedih...
pa gik owh... aku pun sikda idea sebenarnya tok... kelas jam pkul 4, tapi kinek buk jak jam2:48 ptg.. argy.. what shud i do??? nak balit, kompom sik datang gik petang tok... nak sik balit, my head hurt... i'm in dilemma... mala sik datang kelas... ntah sem tok, kadang aku selalu sakit palak.. migrain aku kdang datang juak sampe aku sik pat angkat.. adoi...
kinek kat lab fakulti tingkat 1.. honestly aku pening palak hari tok eh, tapi kejap2 nya datang.. bila dah datang bukan alang2.. saket bahagian depan palak ku... n aku perasan, sejak duak menjak tok.. start jumat lepas, aku heran pahal kadang bila aku duduk pun aku asa duinia berpusing sekeliling aku.. and i guess, that because of my head... kadang aku sik balance time jalan.. selalu langgar cia, langgar citok... aduh.. pa nak jadi ngan aku tok... palak ku makin hari makin, ntah la.. macam apa jak.. then, gastrik aku pun macam kin teruk.. tapi sik teruk ne.. cuma bila dah datang gastrik ya, aku nang sakit.. i try to be cool.. tapi dalam hanya Tuhan yang tau apa yang akuasa.. kinek tok pun palak aku asa berat semacam.. ntah kenak... dalam minggu tok juak aku bawak rileks, no more study malam2... tapi still wak nya datang.. guess maybe bukan sebab tensen.. harap sikda papa... sik larat aku nak sakit palak tiap2 hari,... huhu dah sikda owg jaga.. "suamiku" nun jauh di mata... sedih...
pa gik owh... aku pun sikda idea sebenarnya tok... kelas jam pkul 4, tapi kinek buk jak jam2:48 ptg.. argy.. what shud i do??? nak balit, kompom sik datang gik petang tok... nak sik balit, my head hurt... i'm in dilemma... mala sik datang kelas... ntah sem tok, kadang aku selalu sakit palak.. migrain aku kdang datang juak sampe aku sik pat angkat.. adoi...
Thursday 13 October 2011
The Song ^^
what do you feel when your love one give you this song and mean it???? me???? i love it... i feel very happy and there is no words can describe... hepi sangat2.. jiwang gerek aku tok.. hehehe i love it.. i do ido.. to runaway with you even forever.. i really do... thank you sayang...
"Runaway" <Bruno Mars>
Ohhh.
Ohhh woah...
So easy to forget our love,
The little things we do,
Like calling for no reason
Just to say the words
"BABY, I LOVE YOU"
I know lately, I've been busy
But a second doesn't go by
Without you crossing my mind
It's been so long since we had time
Let's take a day & make everything right
[Chorus]
Just take my hand, fall in love with me again
Let's runaway to the place
Where love first found us
Lets runaway for the day
Don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated,
It only takes a day to change it.
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day
So let's runaway...
Let's runaway, just for the day
Runaway...runaway...
Girl, you've been so patient
Spending nights alone & not complaining
But I'll make it up to you,
& I promise today I won't keep you waiting
Please give me this one chance
To remind you of everything we have
I won't give up I'm too much in love
& I want you to know that
[Chorus]
Just take my hand,
Fall in love with me again
Let's runaway to the place
Where love first found us
Let's runaway for the day,
Don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated
It only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day
So let's runaway for the day
And I'll give everything in this moment
& I promise to make everyday just like the day
Let's runaway to the place
Here love first found us
Let's runaway for the day
Don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated
It only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day.
Soo let's runaway....
"Runaway" <Bruno Mars>
Ohhh.
Ohhh woah...
So easy to forget our love,
The little things we do,
Like calling for no reason
Just to say the words
"BABY, I LOVE YOU"
I know lately, I've been busy
But a second doesn't go by
Without you crossing my mind
It's been so long since we had time
Let's take a day & make everything right
[Chorus]
Just take my hand, fall in love with me again
Let's runaway to the place
Where love first found us
Lets runaway for the day
Don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated,
It only takes a day to change it.
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day
So let's runaway...
Let's runaway, just for the day
Runaway...runaway...
Girl, you've been so patient
Spending nights alone & not complaining
But I'll make it up to you,
& I promise today I won't keep you waiting
Please give me this one chance
To remind you of everything we have
I won't give up I'm too much in love
& I want you to know that
[Chorus]
Just take my hand,
Fall in love with me again
Let's runaway to the place
Where love first found us
Let's runaway for the day,
Don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated
It only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day
So let's runaway for the day
And I'll give everything in this moment
& I promise to make everyday just like the day
Let's runaway to the place
Here love first found us
Let's runaway for the day
Don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated
It only takes a day to change it
What I have to say can't wait
All I need is a day.
Soo let's runaway....
Wednesday 12 October 2011
langit hitam mulai cerah...
halu3... aku hari tok, pagi tadik sakit mata ku dow... susah aku tido malam tek.. jam 5 dak ya buk aku tido.. ntah tiba2 sik pat tido... cian owg bilik aku terpaksa tido dalam terang... but, that my rite too.. aku bukak lampu sebelah aku juak.. hehehe anyway, sorry..
tapi malam tadik, sungguh aku sik pat tido... entah kenapa... pagi tek, kelahi gik ngan gerek ku.. but i can control my emo now.. so.. sik kelahi gilak... and now.. were ok.. asanya nya dah ok kot.. dah cool down wak mungkin.. hrapa nya ok jak.. sik maok kelahi ngan nya... sik tahan aku sik meseg nya sehari... aku syang nya gilak2...
aku harap pastok.... sikda gik nya pikir bukan2.. tok payah mun nya jauh, i cant control my love feeling... dapat aku tenangkan nya... tok nya jauh, sik pat aku polah papa... cian nya... i miss my love so much...
sayang, i love you.. jgn pikir bukan2 gik k... i love only you...
tapi malam tadik, sungguh aku sik pat tido... entah kenapa... pagi tek, kelahi gik ngan gerek ku.. but i can control my emo now.. so.. sik kelahi gilak... and now.. were ok.. asanya nya dah ok kot.. dah cool down wak mungkin.. hrapa nya ok jak.. sik maok kelahi ngan nya... sik tahan aku sik meseg nya sehari... aku syang nya gilak2...
aku harap pastok.... sikda gik nya pikir bukan2.. tok payah mun nya jauh, i cant control my love feeling... dapat aku tenangkan nya... tok nya jauh, sik pat aku polah papa... cian nya... i miss my love so much...
sayang, i love you.. jgn pikir bukan2 gik k... i love only you...
Tuesday 11 October 2011
i wana erased...
i can't focus...
i can't sleep...
i can't think...
i can't response...
and now my head hurt... plz not migrain...
i beg.. but, there's something heavy in my head...
i keep thinking about my heart...
keep thinking about the pain...
keep thinking about the scar...
keep thinking about how to stop this sorrow...
and im end falling down...
try to breathe, being suffocated, clenching my fist...
stopping the heart to stop beating...
dats a broken heart that scattered on the floor...
i wonder how it cure...
i can't sleep...
i can't think...
i can't response...
and now my head hurt... plz not migrain...
i beg.. but, there's something heavy in my head...
i keep thinking about my heart...
keep thinking about the pain...
keep thinking about the scar...
keep thinking about how to stop this sorrow...
and im end falling down...
try to breathe, being suffocated, clenching my fist...
stopping the heart to stop beating...
dats a broken heart that scattered on the floor...
i wonder how it cure...
cure???
"Aku sentiasa sayang kamu" my lover msg..
is dat a cure? yes, i guess it is...
honestly, im speechless...
but im happy my lover said that...
but my heart.. panas eh, ahahaha...
macam maok tercabut jak... <unlogic hahahaha>
but its true... im suffocate here
is dat a cure? yes, i guess it is...
honestly, im speechless...
but im happy my lover said that...
but my heart.. panas eh, ahahaha...
macam maok tercabut jak... <unlogic hahahaha>
but its true... im suffocate here
SCAR
"aku tak mahu aku bukan yang pertama buat mu. "
sakit dow... my love one wrote on the blog...
sakit eh... aduh, macam renyuk, dipijak2 hati aku...
sakit eh, asa di siat-siat hati aku...
sakit eh, asa ditikam2 hatiku dengan benda tumpul but still tertusuk di dalam...
argh.. sakit eh...
<menggeletar jari jemari, tangan.. badan menahan asa sakit... how shud i face myself tomorrow? how shud i face da one who said that tomorrow? how shud i face the world tomorrow?...>
i need estacy.. or maybe alcohol would best fit for bitch like me... HAHAHAHA
but i dont want to say youre at fault.. aku sedar itu salahku.
sakit dow... my love one wrote on the blog...
sakit eh... aduh, macam renyuk, dipijak2 hati aku...
sakit eh, asa di siat-siat hati aku...
sakit eh, asa ditikam2 hatiku dengan benda tumpul but still tertusuk di dalam...
argh.. sakit eh...
<menggeletar jari jemari, tangan.. badan menahan asa sakit... how shud i face myself tomorrow? how shud i face da one who said that tomorrow? how shud i face the world tomorrow?...>
i need estacy.. or maybe alcohol would best fit for bitch like me... HAHAHAHA
but i dont want to say youre at fault.. aku sedar itu salahku.
don't lie...
its hurt...
i lose my focus...
it scar my broken heart...
before it did, my heart already fall into pieces...
painful... hurt... sorrow... dark.. and darker...
and end with tears...
i lose my focus...
it scar my broken heart...
before it did, my heart already fall into pieces...
painful... hurt... sorrow... dark.. and darker...
and end with tears...
Fuck!
the most Good things i better at is hurting people heart...
then, i hurt myself... and crying silently at the corner of my heart...
i dont have anyone to cry with... just the broken heart scarred me even more...
then, i hurt myself... and crying silently at the corner of my heart...
i dont have anyone to cry with... just the broken heart scarred me even more...
I Did It Again...
em... <tengah polah pta.. and on the smetime msg my lover>
i did it again.. i make my love sad again.. harap nya sik nangis jak la... setakat tok, sejak mek duak on balit, dah banyak kali aku polah nya nangis.. even face to face, aku polah nya nangis 3 kali dah... first time aku polah nya nangis, aku tergamam... masa ya, aku ingat nya ok jak... bila tangga nya sik gerak2 kat tingkap, aku terus approach nya and peluk nya wish to ease my lover... but then, still no reaction, but then bila aku tangga mukanya, i can feel the sorrow inside... aku ingat nya just bersedih, tapi aku dengar sedikit pelik dari soranya.. macam owg buk nangis.. then, aku usap pipinya, and <something hit me>. basah, aku usap air matanya... hanya tuhan jak tauk apa aku asa time ya... sakit hatiku... berdegup kencang gilak3... sik pernah aku asa dakya... sakit sangat sampe aku susah nak bernafas... but i try to control, coz my lover need me mre. aku peluk nya tenangkan nya ... i wish i can cry for you... but i cant, coz my heart sangat2 sakit time ya, bila nya dah tenang cket, ntah pahal air mata aku gik jatuh... parah asa hati aku eh... even tonite, i cry for my lover, my precious... hanya nya dapat polah aku nangis and nya juak lah polah aku hepi... i love my lover... sungguh aku cinta padanya sowg... but i alwaz hurt my lover's feeling even i dont have intention to...
sayang jangan bersedih... its hurt,
i did it again.. i make my love sad again.. harap nya sik nangis jak la... setakat tok, sejak mek duak on balit, dah banyak kali aku polah nya nangis.. even face to face, aku polah nya nangis 3 kali dah... first time aku polah nya nangis, aku tergamam... masa ya, aku ingat nya ok jak... bila tangga nya sik gerak2 kat tingkap, aku terus approach nya and peluk nya wish to ease my lover... but then, still no reaction, but then bila aku tangga mukanya, i can feel the sorrow inside... aku ingat nya just bersedih, tapi aku dengar sedikit pelik dari soranya.. macam owg buk nangis.. then, aku usap pipinya, and <something hit me>. basah, aku usap air matanya... hanya tuhan jak tauk apa aku asa time ya... sakit hatiku... berdegup kencang gilak3... sik pernah aku asa dakya... sakit sangat sampe aku susah nak bernafas... but i try to control, coz my lover need me mre. aku peluk nya tenangkan nya ... i wish i can cry for you... but i cant, coz my heart sangat2 sakit time ya, bila nya dah tenang cket, ntah pahal air mata aku gik jatuh... parah asa hati aku eh... even tonite, i cry for my lover, my precious... hanya nya dapat polah aku nangis and nya juak lah polah aku hepi... i love my lover... sungguh aku cinta padanya sowg... but i alwaz hurt my lover's feeling even i dont have intention to...
sayang jangan bersedih... its hurt,
My Works
halu2..
pta... tauk nak? projek tahun akhir.. huhu...
buk hari tok tek aku dapat surt yang aku mohon pkei antar g sekolah pendidikan khas kat samarahan ya... huhu hepi la juak, sigek keja siap... apat aku proceed.. harap diluluskan la oleh pihak sekolah... senang cket keja aku... khamis, pak cik aku tolong hantar surat... tapi aku busy bah khamis ya.. mintak2 dapat berjalan ngan lancar la.. huhu.. ku kinek bila tensen mesti panas baran... aku pun sik tauk.. bila ditangga.. aku muhasabah dirik, macam aku dah makin diam wak bah... ngan geng pun kadng aku polah dek jak.. tapi aku sik berniat pun.. tp, malas ku nak pikir.. yang penting Pta and asgnments aku suma siap... huhu
buk hari tok juak aku tauk, untuk PTA 1 tok, aku kena polah sampe chapter 3 jak... sampe methodology... huhu nasib sampe cia.. so far aku dah siap suma except half literature review and methodology... but, in my mind.. i know what shud i do... cuma malas nak menaip.. (tapi taip blog wajin plak.. huhu)... kinek mkin hari makin malas... tapi kadang terpaksa paksa dirik.. blaja pun start malas tok.. plez la.. jgn.. focus in study... try to increase your pointer this sem... im really craving for it... i really do need to be focus.. AMIN...
aja aja hwaiting!!!! i know i can do it... never give up!!!! and dont let other things make you lose focus..
pta... tauk nak? projek tahun akhir.. huhu...
buk hari tok tek aku dapat surt yang aku mohon pkei antar g sekolah pendidikan khas kat samarahan ya... huhu hepi la juak, sigek keja siap... apat aku proceed.. harap diluluskan la oleh pihak sekolah... senang cket keja aku... khamis, pak cik aku tolong hantar surat... tapi aku busy bah khamis ya.. mintak2 dapat berjalan ngan lancar la.. huhu.. ku kinek bila tensen mesti panas baran... aku pun sik tauk.. bila ditangga.. aku muhasabah dirik, macam aku dah makin diam wak bah... ngan geng pun kadng aku polah dek jak.. tapi aku sik berniat pun.. tp, malas ku nak pikir.. yang penting Pta and asgnments aku suma siap... huhu
buk hari tok juak aku tauk, untuk PTA 1 tok, aku kena polah sampe chapter 3 jak... sampe methodology... huhu nasib sampe cia.. so far aku dah siap suma except half literature review and methodology... but, in my mind.. i know what shud i do... cuma malas nak menaip.. (tapi taip blog wajin plak.. huhu)... kinek mkin hari makin malas... tapi kadang terpaksa paksa dirik.. blaja pun start malas tok.. plez la.. jgn.. focus in study... try to increase your pointer this sem... im really craving for it... i really do need to be focus.. AMIN...
aja aja hwaiting!!!! i know i can do it... never give up!!!! and dont let other things make you lose focus..
It Sting Again...
em... something happen today.. its not a big deal really... em
its sting, when i look at it...
it hurt, when i stare at it...
even without my will...
i try to not look at it...
but i can't...
it bleed when im remember all about it...
the tears seems like to run through my eyes,
but, i cant coz i already promise to myself..
just to forget at it and turn to a new leaf...
i've tried, and i made it...
its been a long time, really..
it is the most biggest sins i've commits...
and that sins surely and absolutely scarred my heart the most...
how i wish it will diminish and dissapper from my sight...
and be gone forever...
but i dont have the power to do it...
coz im not God, but only a small human in this world...
Ya Allah... give me strength... even im not your perfect muslimah...
its sting, when i look at it...
it hurt, when i stare at it...
even without my will...
i try to not look at it...
but i can't...
it bleed when im remember all about it...
the tears seems like to run through my eyes,
but, i cant coz i already promise to myself..
just to forget at it and turn to a new leaf...
i've tried, and i made it...
its been a long time, really..
it is the most biggest sins i've commits...
and that sins surely and absolutely scarred my heart the most...
how i wish it will diminish and dissapper from my sight...
and be gone forever...
but i dont have the power to do it...
coz im not God, but only a small human in this world...
Ya Allah... give me strength... even im not your perfect muslimah...
im sowi
em... sedih eh gerek aku dingin da ngan aku hari tok kak baca blog aku.. nyesal and regret sangat2.. sowi... i didnt do it really... em... sik tauk maok cakap apa... the only things i can say is im sowi.. there is only you in my heart..in deep inside and out of my heart.... baby sayang sayang sowg jak... im sowi... i can't stand your coldness as how you dont stand my coldness... i love you... ETERNITY
Monday 10 October 2011
buk beberapa ketika tek aku habes mendownload.. huhu.. banyak dow cita.. masalahnya, hobi aku mendownload jak keja.. kak ya, sik juak aku tangga2.. plek kan??? banyak gilak download sampe sik tertangga semua nak di download.. huhu tapi sikda cita korea tek aku jumpa.. aku maok tangga cita ha ji won... sector 7.. ntah bila la kuar cita ya.. macam best bah.. huhu... ha ji won.. ha ji won.. nak hensem la nya dalam ya.. rambut pendek.. sama time dalam secret garden... hehehe (teringat gerek aku pun hensem.. hensem gik riya...) apa gik owh.. aku saja jak tulis blog sambil tunggu kawanku habes online.. ntah apa yang dipolah nya.. nya padah tunggu 10 minit... huhu aku pa gik, dah habes mendownload tek aku on blog and update.. hehehe dah jam empat dah kinek.. k lah kak tok kelas virtual reality.. nampaknya, aku berapa dalam virtual class aka mimpi la alamatnya.. huhu..
k lah.. bubbye... lak update gik.. hehehe salam...
k lah.. bubbye... lak update gik.. hehehe salam...
Sunday 9 October 2011
me likeee...
All The Right Moves <one republic>
All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
All They got all the right moves in all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down
Just paint the picture of a perfect place
They got it better than what anyone's told you
They'll be the King of Hearts, and you're the Queen of Spades
Then we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers
I know we've got it good
But they got it made
And the grass is getting greener each day
I know things are looking up
But soon they'll take us down,
before anybody's knowing our name.
They got all the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
We've got all the wrong moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
All They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear
And the sound you like
Are we just sinking in an ocean of faces?
It can be possible that rain can fall,
Only when it's over our heads
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away
Over the world is death.
They got,
They got,
All the wrong friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
They got, all the wrong moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
All They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
All They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
http://www.elyricsworld.com/all_the_right_moves_lyrics_one_republic.html
Yeah, we're going down
It don't matter what you see.
I know I could never be
Someone that'll look like you.
It don't matter what you say,
I know I could never face
someone that could sound like you.
All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
All They got all the right moves and all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down
All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
All They got all the wrong moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
All They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down.
Yeah, we're going down.
Yeah, we're going down.
(All the right moves, hey)
Yeah, we're going down
(All the right moves, hey)
Yeah, we're going down
All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
All They got all the right moves in all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down
Just paint the picture of a perfect place
They got it better than what anyone's told you
They'll be the King of Hearts, and you're the Queen of Spades
Then we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers
I know we've got it good
But they got it made
And the grass is getting greener each day
I know things are looking up
But soon they'll take us down,
before anybody's knowing our name.
They got all the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
We've got all the wrong moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
All They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear
And the sound you like
Are we just sinking in an ocean of faces?
It can be possible that rain can fall,
Only when it's over our heads
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away
Over the world is death.
They got,
They got,
All the wrong friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
They got, all the wrong moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
All They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
All They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
http://www.elyricsworld.com/all_the_right_moves_lyrics_one_republic.html
Yeah, we're going down
It don't matter what you see.
I know I could never be
Someone that'll look like you.
It don't matter what you say,
I know I could never face
someone that could sound like you.
All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
All They got all the right moves and all the right faces
So yeah, we're going down
All the right friends in all the wrong places
So yeah, we're going down
All They got all the wrong moves and all the wrong faces
So yeah, we're going down
They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down
All They said, everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
Yeah, we're going down.
Yeah, we're going down.
Yeah, we're going down.
(All the right moves, hey)
Yeah, we're going down
(All the right moves, hey)
Yeah, we're going down
sakit...
em.. what have i done wrong??? tiba2 tinggikan sora... first ya dah ok da... em.. its hurt... don't you remember im sensitive being shout like that???? selamak tok pun ada juak nya tinggikan sora depan2... its hurt... asa nak nangis jak.. but u never know right??? i know as im expert in controlling my reaction ... sorry... my bad em..
from my love...
lagu gerekku berik tek.. hehehe naughty.. but full of meaning... tq sayang
"Thank You" <j.holiday>
Girl its my pleasure to do whatever, whatever you like
And if you say it i will do it all night
You got me screaming my my my my ... baby
Girl i want you to know
If i wined you and dined you would you wake up in the morning in my bed
Dont you tell me no
[Chorus:]
From the bar to the car
We aint got that get that far no
To the boom boom room
Got something for you
So hop off in in this tub
And show your boy some love
Baby i just wanna thank you
Girl i want to thank you for a lovely evening
I want to thank you for the time we spent
Show my appreciation i want to bang your back untill the morning comes round [2x]
I wanna take my time and put my face in and places it for
Thats gonna blow your mind
And what im going to do to you aint never been done to you and
Im gonna put my name on it
Got screaming different languages girl
While were making love all around the world in france its j'adore in spain its mi amor
At the crib we on the floor
I just want to take you
[Chorus 2x]
I know that you want share love with me
[Chorus 2x]
"Thank You" <j.holiday>
Girl its my pleasure to do whatever, whatever you like
And if you say it i will do it all night
You got me screaming my my my my ... baby
Girl i want you to know
If i wined you and dined you would you wake up in the morning in my bed
Dont you tell me no
[Chorus:]
From the bar to the car
We aint got that get that far no
To the boom boom room
Got something for you
So hop off in in this tub
And show your boy some love
Baby i just wanna thank you
Girl i want to thank you for a lovely evening
I want to thank you for the time we spent
Show my appreciation i want to bang your back untill the morning comes round [2x]
I wanna take my time and put my face in and places it for
Thats gonna blow your mind
And what im going to do to you aint never been done to you and
Im gonna put my name on it
Got screaming different languages girl
While were making love all around the world in france its j'adore in spain its mi amor
At the crib we on the floor
I just want to take you
[Chorus 2x]
I know that you want share love with me
[Chorus 2x]
Penat...
halu.. halu halu...
hari tok tek, hari aku kuar sepanjang hari.. sik sepanjang gilak pun.. huhu kejap je... araound 9 am too 3++ pm... hehehe
nothing special happen after all.. cuma aku ngan kakak aku antar kazen ku pegi mengerjakan haji... sedih wak la tangga time cdak berpisah ngan ibu bapa, sanak saudara,... semoga mereka selamat pergi dan kembali.. amin... time antar ya, hehehehe banyak dow owg... time ya aku mengenja.. hahaha (p/s: sowi syg... bukan ngenja pun... tertangga) banyak owg hensem.. adoi.. gerek aku baca kompom panas... tapi aku maok juak tulis... hehehe.. tapi sik la sampei aku jatuhcinta.. hati aku hanya untuk si dia... sik penah nama si dia hilang atau pudar dari hatiku... nak ku tulis nama nya??? sik pa la kan.. huhu terkezuttt kitak owg lak.. huhu
then, hari tok juak si dia, gerek ku balit kampung cuti... sebulan lebih gik ya.. sengsara la aku ctok.. beberapa minggu yang lepas mala berkepit ngan nya.. then now terpaksa berpisah lagi... parah jiwa hati dan perasaan... i miss my love already... asa maok agak cnun jak.. tapi i hve my study.. i have to sacrifice and jadi burung pungguk yang merindui pasangannya... windu windu windu... sayang, baby windu sayang gilak3... honestly, i cant live without you... lepas aku dilukai teruk2 gilak dolok.. sikda sapa pun yang dapat ubati and last2 hati aku menjadi sedingin ais dikutub utara dan selatan... sampe duak tahun aku jadi single.. pecah rekod ya... huhu selalu aku single paling lamak 1 bulan la.. huhu. sehinggalah kekasih aku kinek tok datang approach aku balit setelah 4 tahun berpisah... at first aku sangat dingin ngan nya... tapi nya sik pernah putus asa, give me all warmness.. last2 dapat juak nya cairkan hati aku... selama tok ramai laki cuba ajak aku jd gerek.. sowng pun sik pat cairkan hati aku.. tapi nya... i lost... until now, i fall for my love each second every minute every hours and every day 365 days a years... hehehe sedih eh.. mintak2 sepanjang sebulan lebih tok cepat2 la masa berlalu... agar sik terasa gilak... aku sentiasaa setia menanti kepulangan cintaku yang tersayang... adoi.. alu ubah topic alu.. hahahaha
kita sambung ah... ah, time kat airport tek.. aku windu indah ngan adik lelakiku kat kampung.. nasib ada kazen ku yang kecik laki tek jadi pengubat... so, aku men kejap ngan nya.. hehehe siap bergambar gik ya.. huhu windu ngan dek as... windu sangat2 nak sayang nya... then, bila ime cdak dah balit, turn mek owg gik pulang.. bukan men jam gik keta nak kuar kat airport time ya.. adoi.. 3 jam geng tersekat kat parking yang sm sik bergerak2... hhuhu nasib bukan aku yang drive.. o aku bawak ilek jak.. tapi cian wak ngan akak ku.. dah nya keja sampe sabtu... then malam pun lambat tido coz rami owg kat umah nya.. cian2... sabo je la kak... oh ya, sigek gik lupak.. time maok kuar dari airport ya, aku jumpa kawan lamk... SMSKian... first aku sik pasan pun nya depan aku.. then, bila aku tangga depan, nya dah tangga aku dah.. terkejut wak aku.. first aku ingat sapa, then buk aku pasan ya Qaddim... hahaha nya pun dah sengeh2 depan ya aku pasan nya.. mun sik, lamak dah aku polah sik kenal kali.. hahahaha bukan apa, aku tok bukan pandei gilak men tegur2 tok mun owg ya nang sik rapat ngan aku... nasib nya tegur dolok, aku tegur balit la.. hehehehe
pa gik owh... asanya sik da gik jak... heheh mun ada lak.. lak aku update gik.. hehehehe
hari tok tek, hari aku kuar sepanjang hari.. sik sepanjang gilak pun.. huhu kejap je... araound 9 am too 3++ pm... hehehe
nothing special happen after all.. cuma aku ngan kakak aku antar kazen ku pegi mengerjakan haji... sedih wak la tangga time cdak berpisah ngan ibu bapa, sanak saudara,... semoga mereka selamat pergi dan kembali.. amin... time antar ya, hehehehe banyak dow owg... time ya aku mengenja.. hahaha (p/s: sowi syg... bukan ngenja pun... tertangga) banyak owg hensem.. adoi.. gerek aku baca kompom panas... tapi aku maok juak tulis... hehehe.. tapi sik la sampei aku jatuhcinta.. hati aku hanya untuk si dia... sik penah nama si dia hilang atau pudar dari hatiku... nak ku tulis nama nya??? sik pa la kan.. huhu terkezuttt kitak owg lak.. huhu
then, hari tok juak si dia, gerek ku balit kampung cuti... sebulan lebih gik ya.. sengsara la aku ctok.. beberapa minggu yang lepas mala berkepit ngan nya.. then now terpaksa berpisah lagi... parah jiwa hati dan perasaan... i miss my love already... asa maok agak cnun jak.. tapi i hve my study.. i have to sacrifice and jadi burung pungguk yang merindui pasangannya... windu windu windu... sayang, baby windu sayang gilak3... honestly, i cant live without you... lepas aku dilukai teruk2 gilak dolok.. sikda sapa pun yang dapat ubati and last2 hati aku menjadi sedingin ais dikutub utara dan selatan... sampe duak tahun aku jadi single.. pecah rekod ya... huhu selalu aku single paling lamak 1 bulan la.. huhu. sehinggalah kekasih aku kinek tok datang approach aku balit setelah 4 tahun berpisah... at first aku sangat dingin ngan nya... tapi nya sik pernah putus asa, give me all warmness.. last2 dapat juak nya cairkan hati aku... selama tok ramai laki cuba ajak aku jd gerek.. sowng pun sik pat cairkan hati aku.. tapi nya... i lost... until now, i fall for my love each second every minute every hours and every day 365 days a years... hehehe sedih eh.. mintak2 sepanjang sebulan lebih tok cepat2 la masa berlalu... agar sik terasa gilak... aku sentiasaa setia menanti kepulangan cintaku yang tersayang... adoi.. alu ubah topic alu.. hahahaha
kita sambung ah... ah, time kat airport tek.. aku windu indah ngan adik lelakiku kat kampung.. nasib ada kazen ku yang kecik laki tek jadi pengubat... so, aku men kejap ngan nya.. hehehe siap bergambar gik ya.. huhu windu ngan dek as... windu sangat2 nak sayang nya... then, bila ime cdak dah balit, turn mek owg gik pulang.. bukan men jam gik keta nak kuar kat airport time ya.. adoi.. 3 jam geng tersekat kat parking yang sm sik bergerak2... hhuhu nasib bukan aku yang drive.. o aku bawak ilek jak.. tapi cian wak ngan akak ku.. dah nya keja sampe sabtu... then malam pun lambat tido coz rami owg kat umah nya.. cian2... sabo je la kak... oh ya, sigek gik lupak.. time maok kuar dari airport ya, aku jumpa kawan lamk... SMSKian... first aku sik pasan pun nya depan aku.. then, bila aku tangga depan, nya dah tangga aku dah.. terkejut wak aku.. first aku ingat sapa, then buk aku pasan ya Qaddim... hahaha nya pun dah sengeh2 depan ya aku pasan nya.. mun sik, lamak dah aku polah sik kenal kali.. hahahaha bukan apa, aku tok bukan pandei gilak men tegur2 tok mun owg ya nang sik rapat ngan aku... nasib nya tegur dolok, aku tegur balit la.. hehehehe
pa gik owh... asanya sik da gik jak... heheh mun ada lak.. lak aku update gik.. hehehehe
Saturday 8 October 2011
IT's OVER!!! yeay...
hari tok tek merupakan hari bersejarah dalam hidup aku... hahahahaha its over... merdeka.. merdeka... heheheh best and free giler asa bila softskill dah habes eh.. senggang pun dah lulus... huhu... sik perlu gik susah payah mencuri masa. benda ya.. sangat polah aku sengal gilak3... dah wajib k grad kelak.. selama duak tahun aku try habeskan.. tapi mala jak clash.. bodoh betul.. but now, thanks to my coursemate.. dapat juak mek owg habeskan semua ya... sik perlu aku riso gik dengan benda sengal ya... selama tok, benda ya selalu polah aku pening... dah amik masa k enjoy, tido lambat gik ya... just k dengar ceramah.. bowink doh.. macam jumpa kaunseling jak.. sik tahan aku eh.. nasib dah habes.. nang merdeka la asanya kinek.. now, i just to focus on my study and paling penting all my asgnments and my PTA... huhu
wish me luck.. huhu bubbye..
wish me luck.. huhu bubbye..
Letting go
halu... sorry la bagi sesiapa yang ada baca blog aku malam tadik.. huhu aku nang bukan aku... im full of anger and tense... hormon sik stabil.. faham2 j la ye... emo cket..
cian gerek aku jadi mangsa panas aku malam tadik include beberapa hari tok.. pagi tok tek la paling sakit... i try to not forcing my lover to come to me.. tapi ntah.. tangan aku naip cepat gik dari berpikir... hahahaha coma panas duak2.. not meant it but ckit aku memang maksudkan.. alu kelahi.. hahaha sik alah2 kelahi mun mek duak jauh... adoi... gne nak jadi laki bini sejati tok.. huhu but i try to be perfect for my hubby..
walau apapun... dia tetap suamiku... em... tapi tadik memang aku panas wak ngan nya.. kejap nak agak, kejap sik.. sampe sigek tahap nya padah nya give up... taxi sik pat di contact.. HA HA HA... time ya aku asa terkilan cikit... then nya tanya "you can't give up rite?" HA HA HA... time ya lah aku asa macam something berat jatuh atas aku... speechless doh... my heart stop beating... em.. dat time i let all this thing slides... sik maok gik aku pikir... sik maok gik aku berharap.. sik maok gik aku memaksa... sik maok sik maok sik maok... it hurt a lot, to be honest.... that time aku terus putus asa... give up sangat2... terus polah aku diam and murung sepanjang softskill... i cant say anything if my lover already give up... hahahaha i just can laugh with broken heart... and i let it go...
pelik kan.. kenak aku behave dakya.. suka paksa owg.. suka tekan owg.. cian la sapa jadi gerek aku.. ya sebab juak aku sik maok brgerek dolok.. polah aku jd single selama 2 tahun.. huhu it working until my lover come back and melt me again with love... aku kalah menahan asa syang yang aku simpan selama berpisah ngan nya... i do really love my lover sangat2.. since sekolah menegah sampe lah kinek... aku sik pat anggap nya ebagai seorang kawan or even adik.. but only my lover...
im sorry.. didnt mean to hurt you... just that i love you so.. tooo much until i tend to hurt you.. trust me.. i never lost my love in you... i love u the most in my world...
cian gerek aku jadi mangsa panas aku malam tadik include beberapa hari tok.. pagi tok tek la paling sakit... i try to not forcing my lover to come to me.. tapi ntah.. tangan aku naip cepat gik dari berpikir... hahahaha coma panas duak2.. not meant it but ckit aku memang maksudkan.. alu kelahi.. hahaha sik alah2 kelahi mun mek duak jauh... adoi... gne nak jadi laki bini sejati tok.. huhu but i try to be perfect for my hubby..
walau apapun... dia tetap suamiku... em... tapi tadik memang aku panas wak ngan nya.. kejap nak agak, kejap sik.. sampe sigek tahap nya padah nya give up... taxi sik pat di contact.. HA HA HA... time ya aku asa terkilan cikit... then nya tanya "you can't give up rite?" HA HA HA... time ya lah aku asa macam something berat jatuh atas aku... speechless doh... my heart stop beating... em.. dat time i let all this thing slides... sik maok gik aku pikir... sik maok gik aku berharap.. sik maok gik aku memaksa... sik maok sik maok sik maok... it hurt a lot, to be honest.... that time aku terus putus asa... give up sangat2... terus polah aku diam and murung sepanjang softskill... i cant say anything if my lover already give up... hahahaha i just can laugh with broken heart... and i let it go...
pelik kan.. kenak aku behave dakya.. suka paksa owg.. suka tekan owg.. cian la sapa jadi gerek aku.. ya sebab juak aku sik maok brgerek dolok.. polah aku jd single selama 2 tahun.. huhu it working until my lover come back and melt me again with love... aku kalah menahan asa syang yang aku simpan selama berpisah ngan nya... i do really love my lover sangat2.. since sekolah menegah sampe lah kinek... aku sik pat anggap nya ebagai seorang kawan or even adik.. but only my lover...
im sorry.. didnt mean to hurt you... just that i love you so.. tooo much until i tend to hurt you.. trust me.. i never lost my love in you... i love u the most in my world...
Friday 7 October 2011
for me...
BODOH... PALOI... GILA... THAT ME...
PA GIK OWH... HAHAAHHAHAHA
IM SURE OUT OF MY MIND TONITE...
NOW GET LOST!!!! I DONT WANT TO THIS HEART FOR TONITE..
ESOK KO BALIT AH... JUST TONITE... LEAVE THIS BODY ALONE...
FUCKING BITCH....
p/s: ini hanya untuk puaskan "nafsu" hahahaha im not in mud... just im in anger... being stupid bitch!!!! bodoh.. paloi!!!!!
PA GIK OWH... HAHAAHHAHAHA
IM SURE OUT OF MY MIND TONITE...
NOW GET LOST!!!! I DONT WANT TO THIS HEART FOR TONITE..
ESOK KO BALIT AH... JUST TONITE... LEAVE THIS BODY ALONE...
FUCKING BITCH....
p/s: ini hanya untuk puaskan "nafsu" hahahaha im not in mud... just im in anger... being stupid bitch!!!! bodoh.. paloi!!!!!
I hate Love Songz
bila dengar love song... make me hope something that will never happen... even if i plan smthing, it just ended breaking my own heart... nothing gonna tear us apart... that is all bulshit... everything in this world even they are meant to be, still there is something that gonna tear it...
with that? pa hal aku tulis ya???? pa reason.. know what nothing.. HAHAHAHAHA... i dont have the reason... but i, i wrote it? soooo unusual? rite???? what is wrong with HEART today? what do you want? hah???? why you behave like this... this is not the right thing to do now... it just end up with broken heart again... wake up HEART.. even you dont want, try accepting... that is the way it have to be... you cant change anything... just let it be wont you... why do you have to hurt others that innocence.. stop being a stupid fucking emo... stop ask "HER" to comeback.. "she" is the old you... wake up!!!!! be yourself now... you can do it... trust in yourself... if cant, pretend to be yourself now.... it will gets better when time pass... YOU CAN DO IT...
with that? pa hal aku tulis ya???? pa reason.. know what nothing.. HAHAHAHAHA... i dont have the reason... but i, i wrote it? soooo unusual? rite???? what is wrong with HEART today? what do you want? hah???? why you behave like this... this is not the right thing to do now... it just end up with broken heart again... wake up HEART.. even you dont want, try accepting... that is the way it have to be... you cant change anything... just let it be wont you... why do you have to hurt others that innocence.. stop being a stupid fucking emo... stop ask "HER" to comeback.. "she" is the old you... wake up!!!!! be yourself now... you can do it... trust in yourself... if cant, pretend to be yourself now.... it will gets better when time pass... YOU CAN DO IT...
bullshit
im feeling bullshit right now...
but i don't know why...
i feel like im not myself...
even with my love one...
im not myself...
i cant even smile...
cant even laugh...
all i do is silent...
keep silent... (with broken heart..)
but i don't know why...
i feel like im not myself...
even with my love one...
im not myself...
i cant even smile...
cant even laugh...
all i do is silent...
keep silent... (with broken heart..)
Monday 3 October 2011
to my BELOVED...
Tear Us Apart - Nadhira Feat. Ron E Jones
Tear Us Apart
From the first time we met each other
I knew that we'd be together
I saw in your eyes
It's just a matter of time
Don't know if this feels like the real thing
Tell me what to do where do I begin
Don't know where to start
Should I let you in my heart
And all it took was one touch, one kiss
I've never felt love like this
I pray I wish we can have this forever
I told you from the very start
It's always gonna be about us
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
I knew that we would make it this far
No nothing's gonna tear us apart
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
Girl you know that now we're together
I won't leave your side forever
You know that i'm yours
Baby, you're my only girl in the world
Now I have no reason to be alone
Fell in love with you
You are now my home
I'll always be true
I see no one else but you
And all it took was one touch, one kiss
I've never felt love like this
I pray I wish we can have this forever
I told you from the very start
It's always gonna be about us
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
I knew that we would make it this far
No nothing's gonna tear us apart
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
Ain't nothing gonna tear us
Ain't nothing gonna tear us
Ain't nothing gonna tear us apart
Ain't nothing gonna tear us
Ain't nothing gonna tear us
Ain't nothing gonna tear us apart
And all it took was one touch, one kiss
I've never felt love like this
I pray I wish we can have this forever
I told you from the very start
It's always gonna be about us
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
I knew that we would make it this far
No nothing's gonna tear us apart
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
Tear Us Apart
From the first time we met each other
I knew that we'd be together
I saw in your eyes
It's just a matter of time
Don't know if this feels like the real thing
Tell me what to do where do I begin
Don't know where to start
Should I let you in my heart
And all it took was one touch, one kiss
I've never felt love like this
I pray I wish we can have this forever
I told you from the very start
It's always gonna be about us
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
I knew that we would make it this far
No nothing's gonna tear us apart
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
Girl you know that now we're together
I won't leave your side forever
You know that i'm yours
Baby, you're my only girl in the world
Now I have no reason to be alone
Fell in love with you
You are now my home
I'll always be true
I see no one else but you
And all it took was one touch, one kiss
I've never felt love like this
I pray I wish we can have this forever
I told you from the very start
It's always gonna be about us
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
I knew that we would make it this far
No nothing's gonna tear us apart
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
Ain't nothing gonna tear us
Ain't nothing gonna tear us
Ain't nothing gonna tear us apart
Ain't nothing gonna tear us
Ain't nothing gonna tear us
Ain't nothing gonna tear us apart
And all it took was one touch, one kiss
I've never felt love like this
I pray I wish we can have this forever
I told you from the very start
It's always gonna be about us
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
I knew that we would make it this far
No nothing's gonna tear us apart
Just don't go and break my heart
Baby, don't go and break my heart
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