Thursday 23 August 2012
Bodoh...
i do and say something that i do not mean at all... bodoh.. aku tetap bodoh mencintai owg yang sikkan mencintai aku... tersangat bodoh kerana mencintai... Cinta itu hanya kesengsaraan... bodoh.. aku sangat bodoh mempercayai yang tidak pernah mencintai aku seperti yang aku harapkan.. BODOH...
Friday 17 August 2012
Wednesday 11 July 2012
Thank You...
huhu... buk tek dapat tangga result dengan mata dik mpun.. bila marek result di tangga geek aku, aku masih sik puas.. Alhamdullillah, biar sik sampe target, aku dapat lulus dalam semua subject.. and that means, aku dapat graduate tahun tok... Alhamdulillah... aku syukur gilak2.. SYUKUR... SYUKUR... SYUKUR... aku betul2 asa bersyukur dapat tunaikan impian parents aku nak tangga anak nya dapat sijil pkei topi hahahaha selama tok anak nya graduate mala sik pkei topi.. hehehehe terima kasih ALLAH, Para pendidik, FAmily tercinta, GEREKKU... dan KAwan-kawanku... kerana sentiasa berada di sisi bila aku perlukan support... bila aku asa down.. coz aku pernah berada dalam SLUMP sekali. harap sik kan berulang gik... and I love my 'Hubby' now... really love him so much... aku harap hubungan kami kekal selama-lamanya... and mun sik da aral melintang, aku akan graduate bulan sepuluh tok... aku doakan semua kerja aku semasa latihan industri kat ctok berjalan dengan lancar... semoga aku dapat selesaikan nya dengan selamat and dapat grade tahun tok... sik sabar nak grade da aku tok...
blurr da ntam xcited dapat confirm graduate tahun tok.. heheheh temu gik di masa akan datang.. I LOVE you ALLLLLL.... c u soon...
blurr da ntam xcited dapat confirm graduate tahun tok.. heheheh temu gik di masa akan datang.. I LOVE you ALLLLLL.... c u soon...
Wednesday 20 June 2012
Habes EXAM...
hoho... marek, tanggal 19 jun 2012 jam 3.30 pm, aku dah habes duduki final paper for my final sem, of final year... bahagia rasa hidup dihati... dah lepas semua paper ya... dalam semua paper ya, satu paper jak aku paling riso kinek... iaitu Computer Vision... aku tersangat la kantoi dengan subject ya, start dari midterm exam gik.. Ya Allah... luluskan la aku untuk subject itu dan subject yang lain... AMIN... kawan2 doakan la untuk aku juak... aku maok Grad tahun tok... sik sanggup aku repeat gik... tapi untuk paper lain, aku menjawap ngan tenang coz half of the questions, aku dapat jawap.. hoho...
suppose to be aku balit hari tok, tapi sik pat coz PTA aku belum siap... lambat li jak supervisor aku ya chock.. awl2 dolok sik nak ngecek isi dalam... buk kinek nak nak check.. harap before jumat to aku boleh habeskan sekali jilid tunggu jilid ya dah satu hal... dah minggu depan aku dah start praktikal. mun praktikal di unimas jak sik la hal.. tok nun di kampung.. hoho... Ya Allah, permudahkan la semua urusan aku pada minggu nie ya Allah.. AMIN...
pa gik owh, kinek tengah berhenti jap tek polah pta... kinek dah polah chapter 4 and 5 gik.. just a correction.. huhu... harap hari to boleh hantar untuk jilid da.. amin....... Aja2 hWaiting!!!!
suppose to be aku balit hari tok, tapi sik pat coz PTA aku belum siap... lambat li jak supervisor aku ya chock.. awl2 dolok sik nak ngecek isi dalam... buk kinek nak nak check.. harap before jumat to aku boleh habeskan sekali jilid tunggu jilid ya dah satu hal... dah minggu depan aku dah start praktikal. mun praktikal di unimas jak sik la hal.. tok nun di kampung.. hoho... Ya Allah, permudahkan la semua urusan aku pada minggu nie ya Allah.. AMIN...
pa gik owh, kinek tengah berhenti jap tek polah pta... kinek dah polah chapter 4 and 5 gik.. just a correction.. huhu... harap hari to boleh hantar untuk jilid da.. amin....... Aja2 hWaiting!!!!
Monday 18 June 2012
Fate (like a fool)
first dengar lagu tok polah aku mengeluarkan air mata... i wish this day wont come in the future...
i just want to be with my beloved one...
i just want to be with my beloved one...
Please do not come to me
I have no confidence to love you anymore
If I try to leave you, don’t hold on to me
Please let me go
I have no confidence to love you anymore
If I try to leave you, don’t hold on to me
Please let me go
One by one, memories of you are placed in my tears
And they fade far away
And they fade far away
Like a fool, I only loved you
So I didn’t know that you were filled with scars
I will stop, I will try to stop my heart that loves you
Goodbye, please forget me now
So I didn’t know that you were filled with scars
I will stop, I will try to stop my heart that loves you
Goodbye, please forget me now
Please don’t cry
I can’t wipe away your flowing tears
I can’t wipe away your flowing tears
Though I can’t forget everything that we loved
Though I can’t throw it out
Though I can’t throw it out
Like a fool, I only loved you
So I didn’t know that you were filled with scars
I will stop, I will try to stop my heart that loves you
Goodbye, please forget me now
So I didn’t know that you were filled with scars
I will stop, I will try to stop my heart that loves you
Goodbye, please forget me now
I embrace you in my arms, close my eyes and engrave you
Because I can’t see you anymore, because you’re not here, because I can’t protect you till the end
Because you’re the person that all of my heart loved
Because I can’t see you anymore, because you’re not here, because I can’t protect you till the end
Because you’re the person that all of my heart loved
I guess I mistook you for destiny
I guess I thought you were mine, I guess I was crazy
I love you, I guess I loved you to death
Goodbye, please forget me now
I guess I thought you were mine, I guess I was crazy
I love you, I guess I loved you to death
Goodbye, please forget me now
Heart Attack!!!!
"Heart Attack"
Turn the lights on!
Ohhh wo-oh, Ohhh wo-oh
We share something so common
Still so rare, and I'm in awe
Never been here before
So high, we're still climbing
Even here inside these walls
Breaking each other's hearts
And we don't care cause we're so
In too deep, can't think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It's killing me, swear I never cried so much
Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
Ohhh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Ohhh wo-oh) would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
All the times when I know I should be smiling
Seem to be the time that I frown the most
Can't believe that we're still survivin
Cause I'm slowly breaking down
Even when I hold you close
And if I lose you
I'm afraid I would lose who
Who I gave my love to
That's the reason I stay around
Even though I fell way
In too deep, can't think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It's killing me, swear I never cried so much
Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
Ohhh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Ohhh wo-oh) would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
And it hurts,
Cause I wanna leave, and you wanna leave
But the love keeps us together
And if I lose you
I'm afraid I would lose who
Who I gave my love to
That's the reason I stay around
Even though I fell way
In too deep, can't think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It's killing me, swear I never cried so much
Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
Ohhh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Ohhh wo-oh) would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
Ohhh wo-oh, Ohhh wo-oh
We share something so common
Still so rare, and I'm in awe
Never been here before
So high, we're still climbing
Even here inside these walls
Breaking each other's hearts
And we don't care cause we're so
In too deep, can't think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It's killing me, swear I never cried so much
Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
Ohhh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Ohhh wo-oh) would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
All the times when I know I should be smiling
Seem to be the time that I frown the most
Can't believe that we're still survivin
Cause I'm slowly breaking down
Even when I hold you close
And if I lose you
I'm afraid I would lose who
Who I gave my love to
That's the reason I stay around
Even though I fell way
In too deep, can't think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It's killing me, swear I never cried so much
Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
Ohhh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Ohhh wo-oh) would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
And it hurts,
Cause I wanna leave, and you wanna leave
But the love keeps us together
And if I lose you
I'm afraid I would lose who
Who I gave my love to
That's the reason I stay around
Even though I fell way
In too deep, can't think about giving it up
But I never knew love would feel like a heart attack
It's killing me, swear I never cried so much
Cause I never knew love would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
Ohhh wo-oh, never never never knew love (Ohhh wo-oh) would hurt this fuckin' bad
The worst pain that I ever had
Monday 28 May 2012
it HURT
dalam post kali tok maybe harsh apa yang aku baca... just nak meluah perasaan yang lamak aku simpan... well adat berkasih, nak padah ngan owg ya, malas nak mesej, makin sakit hati bila nya jawap "OK", apalah ya? em... sapa terbaca ya terasa sowi lah... if you do really love me, you wil take the positive and think about it before acting like stupid and regret for what had you done...
apa ko maok aku jadi gik? masih sik cukup kasih syg aku berik? sik cukup cinta aku setengah mati ngan ko? maok aku betul2 sakit then parah lebih parah gik hidup dari time aku curang ngan ko dolok? em? aku asa you have hurt me bad enough.. sangat enough!!!! ko sik tauk apa ku asa ctok, yang ko tauk melayan hati ko yang sakit. then ko makin sakit bil;a ko dah sakiti aku.. aku sik layan ko, even not one meseg... jujur tiap malam aku maok meseg ko, tapi bila terpikir kata2 ko, aku tahan dirik aku.. aku nak tangga sejauh mana ego ko dalam mencintai aku.. aku nak tangga selama mana ko nak hidup dak tok ngan aku, sik meseg sik da khabar berita... jagn ko padah aku curang gik cukup la... lepas kelas, tiem aku dudk sowg, know what im thiniking, im just think about YOU.. aku pikir, adakah ko akan bersama yang lain yang lebih baik dari aku? but i trust you... so i throw away that thought jauh2... kau jak aku pikir. betul aku masih tulis sal shinee, so what? ya sik bermakna aku terus lupak ngan kau. ko mala jak padah aku tok sentiasa sik ingant ko dalam blog ko ya.. then ko akan jawap, "jagn la tangga blog aku mun sakit"... nak? i know you too well. gik ko gik tangga blog aku polah ko sakait. so what the differences? sama jak bagi aku... kdang aku terpikir sampai bila ko nak hidup dalam kenangan lamak yang menyakitkan ya? aku riso tangga ko dak ya... aku riso. mun boleh, aku sanggup ambik suma sakit ya, berik nagn aku.. ko hepi jak.. aku dah padah ngan ko jagn terlalu ego melayan perasaan macan dalam cita "Andai itu Takdirnya." aku harap ko sik jadi macam laki ya... terlalu ego sampai anak bini pun nya sik pandang sebelah mata.. sanggup kejami bini nya demi sebab terlalu ego. jgn pikir mo sowg jak sakit, aku pun sakit tangga ko kedak ya.. aku sayang ko, sebab tok aku tulis suma tok coz aku tauk ko akan baca papa yang aku tulis tok... kadang aku terpikir, perlukah aku sik terima cinta ko balit, bagi pandangan aku ko lebih bahagia bersama ain dari bersama aku. ain bleh ikut semua permintaan ko, gne jadi bini ko yang terbaik n ikut cara ko, im sory.. aku try sehabis baik, tapi ko masih sakit, ko masih sik puas hati, and now aku sik tauk pa nak polah gik... mun aku jadi dirik aku yang sebenar, aku sik asa ko akan tahan... semua owg pun sik trahan... jujur aku padah... you dont know me syg... why dont you learn to know about me, bout my family... aku syg family ko macam family aku... ko syg family aku macam ko syg family ko sik? aku tauk aku sik bagus untuk ko... aku tauk, sebab ya, dalam hati aku aku kalo bleh aku sik maok kawin coz setakat tok sikda owg dapat tahan ngan aku... sowi la...
banyak dah aku tulis.. cukup la... just want you to konw, i love you so much... tapi dalam aku menyayangi ko, aku pun ada limit... sabar aku ada limit, hati aku ada limit... aku sik maok terluka ngan dilukai owg yang aku telah janji sehidup semati... aku dah terlalu banyak lukai ko... aku maok ko hepi.. but i fail... never success. it feel like Hell!!!
p/s: baby sj guna "aku kau" senang cket tulis... jgn amik hati...
apa ko maok aku jadi gik? masih sik cukup kasih syg aku berik? sik cukup cinta aku setengah mati ngan ko? maok aku betul2 sakit then parah lebih parah gik hidup dari time aku curang ngan ko dolok? em? aku asa you have hurt me bad enough.. sangat enough!!!! ko sik tauk apa ku asa ctok, yang ko tauk melayan hati ko yang sakit. then ko makin sakit bil;a ko dah sakiti aku.. aku sik layan ko, even not one meseg... jujur tiap malam aku maok meseg ko, tapi bila terpikir kata2 ko, aku tahan dirik aku.. aku nak tangga sejauh mana ego ko dalam mencintai aku.. aku nak tangga selama mana ko nak hidup dak tok ngan aku, sik meseg sik da khabar berita... jagn ko padah aku curang gik cukup la... lepas kelas, tiem aku dudk sowg, know what im thiniking, im just think about YOU.. aku pikir, adakah ko akan bersama yang lain yang lebih baik dari aku? but i trust you... so i throw away that thought jauh2... kau jak aku pikir. betul aku masih tulis sal shinee, so what? ya sik bermakna aku terus lupak ngan kau. ko mala jak padah aku tok sentiasa sik ingant ko dalam blog ko ya.. then ko akan jawap, "jagn la tangga blog aku mun sakit"... nak? i know you too well. gik ko gik tangga blog aku polah ko sakait. so what the differences? sama jak bagi aku... kdang aku terpikir sampai bila ko nak hidup dalam kenangan lamak yang menyakitkan ya? aku riso tangga ko dak ya... aku riso. mun boleh, aku sanggup ambik suma sakit ya, berik nagn aku.. ko hepi jak.. aku dah padah ngan ko jagn terlalu ego melayan perasaan macan dalam cita "Andai itu Takdirnya." aku harap ko sik jadi macam laki ya... terlalu ego sampai anak bini pun nya sik pandang sebelah mata.. sanggup kejami bini nya demi sebab terlalu ego. jgn pikir mo sowg jak sakit, aku pun sakit tangga ko kedak ya.. aku sayang ko, sebab tok aku tulis suma tok coz aku tauk ko akan baca papa yang aku tulis tok... kadang aku terpikir, perlukah aku sik terima cinta ko balit, bagi pandangan aku ko lebih bahagia bersama ain dari bersama aku. ain bleh ikut semua permintaan ko, gne jadi bini ko yang terbaik n ikut cara ko, im sory.. aku try sehabis baik, tapi ko masih sakit, ko masih sik puas hati, and now aku sik tauk pa nak polah gik... mun aku jadi dirik aku yang sebenar, aku sik asa ko akan tahan... semua owg pun sik trahan... jujur aku padah... you dont know me syg... why dont you learn to know about me, bout my family... aku syg family ko macam family aku... ko syg family aku macam ko syg family ko sik? aku tauk aku sik bagus untuk ko... aku tauk, sebab ya, dalam hati aku aku kalo bleh aku sik maok kawin coz setakat tok sikda owg dapat tahan ngan aku... sowi la...
banyak dah aku tulis.. cukup la... just want you to konw, i love you so much... tapi dalam aku menyayangi ko, aku pun ada limit... sabar aku ada limit, hati aku ada limit... aku sik maok terluka ngan dilukai owg yang aku telah janji sehidup semati... aku dah terlalu banyak lukai ko... aku maok ko hepi.. but i fail... never success. it feel like Hell!!!
p/s: baby sj guna "aku kau" senang cket tulis... jgn amik hati...
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